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  • Two updates. In one week! HA!

    So I managed to find the time to update again. I finally finished reading all of Questionable Content. Took me long enough and the characters became less smarmasaurus when read slowly. Yes I can use that word. Don’t judge me.

    So last night was Dana’s birthday party. She doesn’t age until May 19th, but it was fun nonetheless. Lots of people came out to the bar with us where we played Shuffle board most the night. I suck at the game, but a miraculous game had me winning in two rounds, 12 on the first and 8 on the second. I was highly impressed with myself, albeit it was luck. Then we went back to Dana’s house and just hung out until the wee hours. Had to come in to work at 12:45 instead of 3 like I had planned, so my day is not quite as awesome as I had hoped, but after work I am headed to Florida for the weekend. And next weekend I am planning on seeing my friend Dani, whom is likely to cut my hair for me as I didn’t get it cut in Oklahoma like I had planned.

    Yesterday was my first plant visit for a chicken factory. We managed to get no work done but it was a good experience. I got to see the whole process, from the feed mill, to the hatchery where the eggs are incubated, to hanging them on the prongs, the shocking water, the throat slitting, the head-popping, defeathering, gut extracting, limb detaching and the entire deboning process, which is hand-done in our company. There were over 100 people cutting up chicken parts all day at this place. Quite the job.

    Still being stupid and indecisive. That should stop. Sometime in the near future. Or I’ll continue down the path of sanity. And no good can come of that. I did spend almost an hour and a half the other day with Verizon trying to order a warranty phone, only to have them tell me at that point that I couldn’t get it because the phone fell under “physical damage” and wasn’t covered. I eventually got them to send it out. Now to move my phone back over. Frustraing trying to deal with them though. Ah well.

    Nerd Note: I managed to make a pretty killer Slip stream CD for my work. I was pretty happy with the overall package. It has all the network drivers for most of our computers pre-installed, only have to name computer and joins to network via install, a batch file that will move it into the proper AD container, runs a GP update, pulls windows updates, runs our asset inventory software and installs our AV. All I have to do is put in my user credentials. Pretty nifty.

    Going to try reading this weekend. Haven’t tried in a while. But who knows what will happen. We might end up getting arrested, we might end up sleeping most the time. WHO KNOWS?! So I will have more to report when I get back. Also will hopefully have my video uploaded from the Oklahoma trip. Maybe.

    In the words of Mark De’Freur IV,
    “If one were to whittle one’s fingers,
    One would become nub to pain.”

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  • It liiiiives

    Good day sir. This post begins and ends with Good day sir. So I’m back. Back in the sense that I am at least writing again. My spirits have been lifted as of late. I got to do some amazing things these past weeks and I haven’t been happier in a while. All sort of spur of the moment, but awesome none-the-less. Where to start?

    My motivation to get myself a drum set is back. That was set on by a miraculous adventure I randomly decided to take. April 29th had been an average Wednesday. Unfulfilling, uninteresting, and overall drab. I did nothing note-worthy at work and came home to an empty apartment, my roommate being at work until the wee hours and my dog down at my father’s for some play time with other animals, a venture I am confident my dog enjoys more than my own company. I wasn’t sleep deprived, but for some reason, having decided there was nothing truly desirable to do at my house after watching cartoons for 5 hours, I was unable to sleep. It was 2:45AM and I was slowly dragging towards a rough day at work as I tried desperately to tell myself sleep is what I needed and I needed it then.

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  • Training myself to care & Clifford Stoll

    Ok. So it’s been a while since I’ve posted, or posted anything worth reading. It’s been a weird couple of months, to be fully honest. I’ve just been doing lots of rethinking, and although I generally feel the same way I used to about most things in my life, i.e. my hobbies, my physical condition, my friends, my environment, my family, I feel a lack of substance in most of it. It seems to have all become quite mundane. I think what always got me through in the past was having such little side projects and the, however minute, reaction of others when I displayed said projects. Like my obsession with buying co-op video games.

    I bought LittleBigPlanet because the game looked fun and had an awesome co-op mode, in my honest opinion. My roommate and brothers seemed to think it was decent, but not something they would do with their free time. It’s a little dissappointing, I guess. I mean I’ve always felt I’ve never had a good video game buddy. Someone who made a decent amount of money to actually buy games and enjoyed spending 8 hours on a video game. This is obviously no-ones fault, but it makes me begin to wonder about my obsession with these games and their worth in my life. Lately these things have started to fall into a grey area. None of them quite capture me like they used to. Nothing speaks to me quite the same. I actually traded in video games for the first time in my life the other day. I believe it’s a terrible waste of money to trade and the games weren’t that terrible, but I couldn’t get into them, them being Last Remnant and Infinite Discovery. RPGs for heaven’s sake! I used to absorb these suckers like a fat kid eating grass if the fat kid was in fact a goat. But I couldn’t get into either. Both of them had story and pacing issues, and Last Remnant had an obnoxious load time.

    So I say all that to say, I’ve been reconsidering my hobbies. One hobby I can’t seem to pry my mind from is keeping a decent blog going. That means I have to be resourceful and always have things to write about. Since most of my hobbies revolve around games still, I am once again going to give game reviewing a try. While I doubt for any internet infamy such as the great Zero Punctuation and his infamous rants, I need this to keep going. But I won’t limit this site to just video games. This site is an ameoba of thought patterns, at least in my mind’s eye. So, to get us started on the random junk that will be coming on here in a regular basis, the best Ted Talk ever, Clifford Stoll!

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  • Nerd rant

    So. I’m alive. I was sick last Thursday, so much so I actually had to miss work. Things have been OK lately. Friday I hung out with Brit at his house for his nerd party. Lots of SF4 and lots of SSB 64. I felt the impulse to buy a few games, so I bought Mega Man 9, Bionic Commando Rearmed, Linger in the Shadows and Burnout Paradise all of the PS Store. Beat all but Wily in Mega Man 9, actually don’t care for Bionic Commando, Linger in the shadows is just fun to watch, but Burnout Paradise I do enjoy a bit.

    I’ve been craving a good racing game and this is right up my alley. Racing with a good TOTAL DESTRUCTION element, but not quite as annoying as FlatOut. Also, I’ve been playing FF7:Crisis Core. Dave let me borrow his PSP so I’ve been raping that. I haven’t caught up to him in the story, which isn’t even halfway through the game, but I am already level 53, 15 higher than Dave’s character, and average about 15000 damage a hit now. I’m one-hitting all the story line enemies right now. It’s quite nice. 🙂

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  • Link free rant?! Could it be?!

    Probably not. Give me a minute to find something worth watching. Anywho, this weekend was absolutely crazy. CRAZY. Friday I hung out with Dana and her roomies, as I have done the past couple of weekends, and it was fun, but for some reason I couldn’t get to sleep. I was up all night until SusieQ needed a ride in the morning to work. I drove her to work and just got on with my day from there. Ended up spending some of the day with Brit, having the most fun in gaming I’ve had in a really long time. Seriously, I haven’t laughed and screamed that much since high school. Thank you Brit. (Hate Fei Long)

    Then my friend Heathbar came in town from Arkansas. Well technically Oklahoma. She moved a while back, but I have a hard time accepting that. Anyways, hung out with her all night. Ended up going to Loca Luna for an old high school friend’s surprise birthday, which is a salsa club in Atlanta. First time I’ve been and likely won’t ever go again, not my scene. But I did manage to run into my brother Javid, which was pretty surreal. Well, after we got back, Heathbar and everyone wanted to pull an all-nighter, so coffee was made, etc. but everyone decided to go to bed and I was stuck awake all night. So that’s two nights in a row of no sleep. Drove Heathbar to the airport in the morning and got home and went to bed FINALLY.

    Slept from 8AM to 2PM, woke up to snow, which was again, pretty surreal. Well, I tried to get more sleep and spent the rest of the day in bed, but couldn’t sleep. Even once night came around, couldn’t get back to sleep. So I went to work with about 6 hours of sleep in 72 hours. Suprisingly, I was still pretty good for the day. However, today I’m feeling very sluggish, which is why I probably don’t have awesome random internets to post. Or do I???

    That’s Obama supporting comic books. For realz. Not a photoshop.

    I’ve read a few reviews of Watchmen so far, and the uber-geeks are a little dissappointed, but some are being very down-to-earth about it. If you expect the exact same thing, especially in character development, then you are going to be disappointed. There is no way a movie could translate it that accurately. Give them some leeway. I still believe Watchmen will outdo Dark Knight.

    So something I don’t talk about much on here are religious beliefs, and this is probably coming entirely out of left field. It used to be such a big thing for me, and if someone were to, say, go back to my old Xanga and read half the rants I had, they would definitely know I was extremely passionate about it. It’s something I am getting heavily back into recently. And pretty soon I will start ranting about it again.

    I leave you with a Silent Bat-Man film, rather THE Silent Bat-Man film. Yay for randoms.

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  • Next big rant

    So a few links first. I figure it’s easiest to get these out of the way first.

    Ted Talk about Siftables, some pretty nifty new computer interactions. Think Tomogatchi on crack with real the ability to have real software support. I especially like the quick musical demonstration. Could really open the door to some amazing possiblities with it.

    Next, I somehow couldn’t avoid getting Mac stuff in my weekly flow of information. Many of you know that I am not a Mac fan at all. Now I’m not saying I’m an afficianado of any form of technology, though I do my best to keep up with what interests me, (damn you Intel i7) but both of these managed to make it to my eyes. It’s quite maddening, realy. I need to find a baby to punch.

    Not sure how many have seen this, the exclusive date with Rorschach. Do enjoy, it is quite exhilirating.

    Lastly, a few Kung-fu vids. If you haven’t seen Chocolate yet, no not the french love film, the Korean? kung-fu film brought by the team that does Tony Jaa’s amazing feats of physical exceptional ability. Here is their latest film. It’s called Power Kids, and I swear I had total flashbacks to 3 Ninjas watching it. Except the 3 kids here are far more deadly, and believe every problem can be solved by one strategically placed knee to the face.

    Things have been doing well on my front. Our company just announced they are closing some more plants. Whoopie, I suppose. I’m still employed, so I’m counting my blessings. I’m trying to save up my money, about to file taxes. I’m hoping I get around 1k, with the stimulus package and all. We shall see. I’ve been hanging out with my sister and her crew quite a bit. I find that after everything that has happened with Kelli, I am becoming more and more passionate about embracing emotion. 

    I would be fool-hardy to say that I took the whole break-up without too much of  breakdown. I was a wreck for a couple of weeks, and am only now struggling to salvage what’s left of me. But at the same token, I wanted to feel all those things. I’m not the kind of person who wants to run from pain or fear, at least not once they are in my life. I don’t take rejection well, for example, but once I’ve been rejected, I fully embrace that pain. I don’t like trying to hide from those things. I had a friend recently telling me they saw a counselor that told them they are depressed. This person didn’t want to think they were, so they just kept avoiding it. That would bother me to no end. I believe you should embrace it. Everyone is depressed at some point in there life. EVERYONE. But there is a difference between being depressed and suffering from depression.

    I’m not saying I’m any kind of doctor or anything, but I like to think I understand the human psyche pretty well, and I do believe people are afraid of embracing emotions. They are afraid of the emotional backlash it can cause. I don’t like to live this way. I want to embrace the good just as much as the bad. This is the base principle for how I can believe in things like true love, for example, but that’s for another time.

    Brit, sir, I will come see you soon and I will get my butt whooped in some ST4 and possibly whoop some butt in SSBB. Also, have you played Left 4 Dead yet? Amazingly fun game to just waste some time in if you like FPS. I love a good co-op game and that sir is all you can get out of this game. Lastly, I leave you with a little SF meets Jackie Chan.

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  • The internets will never cease to amaze me

    A few cool links today. First off, check your stomach at the door. This one did a number on my appetite. This might be why you are fat. Some of the foods posted there are just flat out ridiculous, even for my stomach of pure fast food torture.

     
    Awesome stop motion video by Rex the Dog.

    Adam Savage, of certain Mythbusters fame, shares his passion for prop making and tells the story of his Doo-Doo bird skeleton and the Maltese Falcon. I post this merely because I love how passionate he is about everything he does. I wish I was that passionate.

    I’ve been getting annoyed with Pandora. I like the Weakerthans, and have a station for them, but over half the songs are Postal Service and Death cab for Cutie, which might as well be the same freaking band, and I am not a fan of either. There has got to be more bands that something in common with the Weakerthans. Ah well, it’s a free service, what are you gonna do?

    My sister managed to break the laptop I gave her, so I am going to have to rebuild that this weekend. Joy. At least I won’t feel guilty about putting XP on it this time. Or maybe i should throw in some Linux. I do believe I still have someone’s install/instructions for a custom linux build. She might only be a little mad, I’m sure. I think it would do her some good getting to know some CL.

    I’ve been hanging with Dana and her crew a bit lately. Anna Breedlove, whom I love and enjoy her company thoroughly, and I have finally been getting back to being friends after two years of awkward tension, due to both of us being entirely too awkward for any such situations to ever resolve themselves in the sense of normalcy. Then there is my sister dear, who can not seem to avoid trouble, especially with the black and blue. We get along quite well now. Greg lives with them still, and Greg and I are getting past most of our (read: MY) awkward tension from living together. I think he hated me, but then again I thought everyone at 1818 hated me for the longest time, and it’s not like I was wrong, but I am extremely paranoid so the point might be null. And then comes SusieQ. SusieQ fascinates me. Not quite in an attracted sense. I’m not looking for any relationships really. But she still amazes me. We have many similar qualities, yet some very differing views on the world and how we go about interactions. I got to hear her sing last night in public and it reminded very much of my friend Heather, whom I suspect hates me now, and I believe this one is more than paranoia. I don’t know if I like that Susie reminds me of her. I don’t think I do. Bad memories.

    All my recent shopping items have made it into my possession. I’ve already watched the Fisher King, and will again this weekend. I haven’t been getting nearly enough sleep lately. I’ve watched 15 movies in the past two weeks. I should probably give it a rest at some point. Maybe one day. My buddy Dave came up last week. We gamed. I felt guilty for how uneventful I was that day, but I think we had some fun. I’ve been a little crazy lately. I suppose that’s OK. To some degree. You know, it’s been two months, and I still haven’t really talked about how I feel about what happened between Kelli and I. I hope to one day be able to put it into writing. Beyond single sentence bull.

    Lastly, some new music. Pedro the Lion, Band of Horses, Maximo Park, Model K, Leroy Bell, Mute Math, and two classics, Decemberists and Tapes ‘n’ Tapes.

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  • So I guess I can come back to life

    And with life, a few new things.

    I found a neat website that I think is a very cool social experiment called We Feel Fine. It involves taking blogs from around the world, using some creative programming to pinpoint different characteristics of people, and searches for the phrase “I feel” and begins to categorize these phrases. It’s pretty awesome and something I do find myself truly intrigued by it. It’s a project that, while somewhat invading, is also pretty genuine and honest. The man behind this, Jonathan Harris, has also started another project, a little less intriguing to me as it’s mostly news-based, called Universe.

    Also, I’ve been getting into some new music. The Prids, Myriad, Ratatat, Ghostland Observatory, Cool Hand Luke, MGMT, El Ten Eleven, and Longwave just to name a few. I’ve always been an avid fan of Pandora, but I’ve just now started using it as a musical discovery device.

    I’ve been impulse shopping lately. Lovecraft, A shack of shrubbery, Human Document, the King of Fishers, a country in South America, best romance in a while, and a few apparel related items.

    I’ve determined I’m going to pick up a new hobby as well. I am currently saving up money to buy myself a drum set. I have my dirty jew of a friend Justin helping me pick a set out and at the same time giving me some lessons. Yay for new hobbies.

    I suppose there isn’t much else. I’ve tried to be more social as of late. Brit, sir, I am sorry for my lack of calling/hanging out. I promise you are still on the list of people I hang out with. I’ve just got to get off my bum. I suppose that’s all. For too long I have been self-concious of what I write on this site. I wanted this site to have more of a public appeal to it. However, I have to accept I don’t have anything the general populus wants, so I am going to turn this into my own personal diary, as I have been yearning for a place to vent lately. So expect random tangents and retarded junk abound good people.

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  • How many 5 year olds can you take?

    I might have a real post later, but until then.

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  • Meh.

    I don’t know if I am going to post much after all. I’ve just been down a lot lately. I suppose this is normal. I’m exhausted with everything and apathy has started to set in. It’s been a couple years since I’ve been truly not happy, but I suppose it has to happen at some point. I hope to pick this up again soon, but I don’t know. I do know I am very seriously considering taking a week off work and just driving. I don’t know where. Somewhere. I know I need it. I will soon though. Soon.

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